As I clear the first rock I calmly turn my board 90° and point it past the next rock. I knick a buried rock on my way by, but it does little to affect my trajectory. Picking up speed quickly on this ~45° slope, I hit the powder fast and I lay down a quick heal side turn. Before I know it I'm in the whiteroom.
I can't see anything.
I'm still calm as I try to cut a little more speed and wait for the snow to settle. The snow is light, hanging in the air. One second passes, two seconds... it feels like an hour and its still not clearing.
Slowly the walls of the couloir begin to come back into view but as soon as I can see the outlined shape of the walls I feel my board pulled out from under me. Before I can process whats happening I'm on my butt, sliding. I'm moving fast and as I go to stand up I flip over the front, cartwheeling forward and picking up more speed.
I'm still not worried, I've flipped before and always been able to recover it.
I go to stand up a second time, and can't get my board under me with how fast the snow is moving. It sends me into another flip this time landing with my board above me, sending me into another roll.
Its soft, but as I land off this next flip I look to my left and see how much snow is moving. Not the innocent sluff that means theres a bit of new snow on top, but a powerful force of snow as far as I can see.
Is this really happening?
As I realize how little control I have on the situation time slows down and fear sets in. No matter how strong and skilled of a rider I am, the mountain doesn't care and the snow is pushing me down hill at an ever increasing velocity.
Everything feels so surreal. This is what we talk about constantly. The fear of anyone going into the mountains in search of powder to ski. We prepare day and night for what we hope will never happen to any of us. Yet here I am flying down this high consequence line with little control over where It sends my body. I got myself into this and accepted the risk as soon as I decided to ski it. Its part of the game, its part of feeling alive, there has to be some risk involved otherwise its not worth it. Unfortunately with lines like this one, there is very little margin for error and I just stepped outside of that margin.
Without hardly acknowledging my decision, my body decides I need to get away from this river of snow and I swim around to get my board under me. I can't stand up, but am able to guide my board to the right, away from the ever expanding avalanche.
As slow as time is moving right now, I still don't even see the tree until I'm almost on top of it. I go to make a toeside turn, but am too backseat to get my weight forward. My only option is to try and cut back left.
Too late.
I hit the tree full force with the front of my board and my right forearm, sending me into a front flip. An excruciating pain ignites in my right knee.
I land on my heal edge and look up to see another tree dead center, ten feet ahead.
This one I'm not avoiding.
I accept the fact that I have no control over this situation, and a strange calm sets in. I'm going with the flow, no longer fighting. The fear melts away as I accept my fate, I'm going to live but it may not be pretty.
I brace my self to take the blow between my bindings and close my eyes waiting for the impact.
nothing...nothing?? Magically the tree is gone and I'm on the other side. I didn't feel a thing. huh?
Without trying to figure out what just happened I cut hard right away from the slide and into the apron. As soon as I feel that I am safe, my knee gives out and I fall back into the snow with a fire radiating up my leg.
A calm voice comes through the mic "Are you alright?"
I can hardly talk through the pain, "My knee....not good....all the snow went." I manage to gasp between breaths before I'm doubled over in pain again.
Jess replies that he saw the whole thing happen, that he'll be right there. Adrenaline is coursing through my veins as I sit trying to breathe through the pain. Looking back I see Jess gracefully jump-turning down the upper section.
As he arrives, the pain slowly becomes manageable and I am able to ski down the remaining few hundred feet to forth lake.
I'm still in a state of shock as we transition and prepare to skin. I'm cold and the storm is only picking up. I pop two ibuprofen and start walking. The only other option being to construct a rescue sled and having Jess pull me out. Having just practiced this we know how miserable this would be. Not an option in my book if I can help it.
Every step I grimace, but I have to keep moving. Eventually the hut comes into view, and with that a sigh of relief.
I drop into a seat next to the fire, my head spinning with questions and images of the slide burned into my memory.
A view of the entrance |
______________________________________
As I sit here with my knee elevated back at East Fork, I realize how lucky I was to walk away from this incident. Someone died skiing this exact line a few years back, and somehow I made it out with a sore knee. I'm grateful for all of Jess' help and for Joe's and Francie's support as I rest and recover, both physically and mentally.